so SINCE elvin couldn't do his blog template properly , I CLAUDIA . have decided to help him (:
sooo this blog is cooler :P , dont worrryyy elvinnn youre cool too !
but anyways , have fun reading this when you see this . sorry for all the fights lately and stuffff (a)

byeeee (:


the saying goes . you want what you can't have . I have what I want . and that's all that matters . I love my bby . she's more to me than you would think . and haters can think what you want . I'm not exactly offended by you when you comment on my behavior on my formspring and not leave a name . why don't you say it to my face . I still wouldn't care . it's my relationship . not yours . and I'm kind of liking my relationship with Amy . don't tell me how to act or treat her . saying I act like it's been a year I've been with her . fuck you . come on haters . I'm right here waiting for you to try to hit me again . you hate on me . not her . bitches come get at me . I'm waiting for you . I love haters . you guys energize me . I suck in your hate . and piss it out . but it keeps coming . That one bitch over the summer Natalie, got me acting the way I said I do last post . That one bitch is effecting my reactions to everything and anything because of the lies she told me . Still lingering on my mind and telling me . "what if she's doing this . what f she's with him" It wouldn't matter . I love Amy enough to trust her . I wouldn't be mad at her . I couldn't be mad at her .
Natalie, Natalie . why does everytime you name comes back up, I don't exactly like it anymore . because now . and for a long time to come . the name I'll become more fond of . is Amy . Amy . Amy . <3 .
I love you . 052410 .





i wonder if she realizes the information she's releasing to me .
smh .


iloveyouAmyZhong .


she's out . i'm home . she doesn't realize . i know .
i try to get her jealous . it doesn't work .
thought you don't realize i don't like how you do .
i don't .
and i try to talk to other girls too .
while you're out with guys .
but i can't lie to myself .
i'm dying to talk to you .
not them .
no matter what they're doing .
they're just getting attention from me because you're not here .
when i see you online i don't talk to them .
only person i talk to is you when i can .
even if you're not responding .
i don't minimize or close your window .
i still sit there with a blank face, or smiling
knowing you're on the other side of the conversation .
at the end of the day . when you call me and we talk .
i can't help but smile . because then is when you send me the
clear message that you love me . and you're mine .
and that even if you're out with people, you're always thinking of me .
but my flaw is . when i over think during the time period of your absence
from me . relationships are a two way thing . and you always pull
through for me at the end of the day .

i love you . <3
05.24.10 . always . forever . and beyond .





My parents think they can just . charge at me head first . and expect not to get hurt . i dont need them in my life . they're nothing but another 2 people who tell me what i can and can't do . yes, i would die if i dont go out with my friends you know fucking why . because they're not friends if i dont see them other then school . because if i dont see them. i'd suicide . they think they know everything about me . they think i just hang out with girls all the time . they dont know who my best friend is they dont know they hurt me more than the amount they say they love me the amount they say they care about me they say they dont care if my friends are allowed out or not . they say they dont care about my friends . i do . i need my time away from them i need my time with my friends i need time with my baby . i need them to die . or vice versa . they say they've dealt with me enough . i've dealt with them enough . i'm freshman . in high school . schools not going to get any easier . i will not have more time to go out do they see that . no its summer . am i alowed to go out . no they say every once in a while i can go out . because its reasonable . whats the reason why i cant go out whenever i want . i've considered everything possible . thought everything over . i'm not going to suicide . i'm too good for that . that would mean i've given up i'm not going to run away . yet . i'm not going to run away from my fight if they decide to make my life a living hell . i'll make theirs a living torture . the kid they never wanted. demon child . i'm staying my ground . parents are overated . threaten to kill me one more time dad . i dare you i told you to kill me today . you walked away you fucking pussy come on . do it . i hope it haunts you for the rest of your life to know your son doesnt want you as a father . that if he had the choice he wouldnt have fucking chose you as his father . and mom . you can go with dad . i dont want you either you're nothing but another woman who bitches about everything my friends can think what they want . you two arent "awesome" you two . are miles from awesome . and i hope you read this one day when i've run away or killed myself .
Onto my boo . i love her . a lot . i miss her . a lot . but is it kind of a one way relationship .? i'm not sure . i feel like it . maybe i just miss her too much . i'm supposed to go to the movies with her friday . but once again . my parents decide to cut me off . and not let me go . they dont let me go out anyways . i can only hope for baby's forgiveness . now that summer is here . i wont have the power to see her as much as i would want . usually i would just visit her at lunchtimes . without my parents knowing . i' can only try to go out . and hope to succeed so i can see her . <3
everyday is brutal .
everynight is pain .
all humans have a certain span of patience .
and i've been waiting long enough .
then again .
i know death is only around the corner .
he has the power to solve my problems .
with the cost of creating for others .
to those people i apologize when the day comes .
but time will only catch up .