if the sun shuts down and decided not to shine no more .
i would still have you . <3


RAWR .
<3


she's right .
and i've known that all along . but i never knew
that it would be this hard to do
what i know i have to .
at one point
before its too late .


i dont like when other people text me
i get a message
i get exicted .
and its not you
LOL . D:
not that i dont like that
i'd just be more happy
if it was your name at the top of my screen
ahahha .
):


Things shouldnt be like this
i shouldnt have to wait 2, 3 weeks to see you .
i shouldnt be thinking the thoughts that i am
i shouldnt be insecure because i dont see you often enough .
so i fight .
my habits that caused problems in my history
my thoughts that are exceeding my mind .
eating me alive from the insides of me .
burning me from the outsides in .
and i can't do much other than just sit here .
and realize how useless i am .
not being able to see you .
not being able to even keep myself under sanity .
falling into love too quickly .
over and over again .
and then regretting it when its too late .
trying to fix it but cant .
not only putting myself down
but all this feeling going away at the sound of your voice
the split second .
at the feeling of vibration on my phone when i know it's you texting me
the feeling of vibration when i see your name on my caller id .
at your name .
at the moment i see you .
all that pain , and suffering is over .
and me feeling like the happiest man on earth .
when you tell me that you love me .
at the whisper of the three words "i love you"
when you say goodbye on the phone .

Don't ever say sorry to me .
because it's not your fault .
that i'm ... indescribable .

Only thing i want you to remember .
is that .
i love you .
and that
i miss you , every second you're away from me


it takes 3 billion people to make this world .
it takes you to make mine .


i have a bad feeling .
and i want it to go away .
....


Spent al morning watching Boondocks .
LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL .
Riley and Huey fucking kill me .
I miss baby girl .
i wish i could go out and see her .
:(
its the 7th today
i see her nxt week hopefully .
and on the 22nd for sure . :D
but thats so far away . :(
she knows i love her . :)
that gets me through the day .
and she tells me she loves me before i sleep .
and that gets me up in the morning . :)


i still feel like shit ...


i'm sorry .
that i'm not allowed out .
i'm sorry .
that i dont get to see you
i'm sorry .
that i spas about things sometimes .
i'm sorry .
period .
i dont get to see you .
and that thought gets in my head
and i feel useless .
like .
a pencil with no lead .
i love you ..
but i'm still uselesss .


well i feel like an asshole . D :
i'm sorry . i love you ...
i would never hurt you .. :(




This is made during a black out .
i wonder if she knows she's always in my mind .
<3


I LOVE YOU AMYYYYYYYYYYYYY


LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL
SHE'SSSS SOOOOOOO CUUUTEEEE
I LOVEEE HERRRRRRR .
AMMYYYYYY .<3
I LOVEEEE YOUUUUUUUUUU .


Wow .
More beef with people i don't even know .


EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE .
accepted into Exclusiv3 Machinima Clan on CoD