i've been so uptight lately ....
i dont know whats going on.
it's probably the best if you cut down on communicating with me for a week or two.
i dont want you to get hurt .
i dont want to be the one to hurt you .
i dont want.


i'm sorry i cant treat you as well as youd wish .
i'm sorry i keep disappointing you .
maybe you'd just be better off without me anyways ..


uh. i got this question on fs ..
and now in my mind, i'm like ... wtf .
and i dont know if its just me.
but i kinda think, it might be true .
because she's been down lately .
and if she's down, and she's in a relationship ...
then if she left me and was single...
she's be happy ....
right .. ?
...

or am i just .
completely over thinking ..


i want to but i dont .


iunno if its you affecting me, but now... i'm starting to like being alone


i feel like i ruined our 10 month .
because
- i couldnt stay up.
- i couldnt text you often
- i couldnt visi tyou at lunch
- i keep leaving for homework, or something .
i feel like .
i fucked up
many many things .

but for what its worth;
i love you, with all my heart and soul.
Happy Tenth Month <3
double digits.
<3
i'm sorry i'm a disappointment .


i'll love you to the death of me.


i dont like not knowing.
i dont like when you know whats wrong but you wont tell me .
makes me think thats its me .
and if i ask you who it is if its not me... and i dont get a name
i'm gonna think its me .


I never ever fall asleep right way. if I leave you on the phone or msn early, it's becuse I have to. not because I want to. if I fall asleep on the phonewoth you, it's because I want to spend as much time with you in any situation, not because I have to. but before I fall asleep, I think of a lotofthings. I think.. what I'd do without you. that makes me think of 20 minutes at least because I can't an answer. what you're doing, but I never go back online to see. if you're asleep yet, but it never seems to be the case.
I'm sorry of my flaws you never seem to mind, but I know it's hiding deep inside you. I know sometimes you wish you weren't with me.


I WANT THE BE THE ONLY ONE TO TEXT YOU BEFORE YOU SLEEP
I WANT TO BE THE ONE YOU THINK ABOUT ONCE YOU WAKE UP
I WANT TO BE THE ONE YOU LOVE.
I WISH YOU WOULD SEE THAT.
I WISH YOU'D STOP FUCKING WITH ME.
I'm greedy. i dont want anyone else to talk to you.
i'm damn clingy, and i'm damn overprotective.
you were over, you tried to hide texting.
you asked why i loooked upset .
i didnt wanna tell you .
i'm not gonna tell you .
but whatever .
i'm ot gonna admit to anything when you ask me.
becuase like i told you before.
i've been hiding my ... side that destroyed my past relationships .
i've been hiding more than you would think.